Passion and Purpose

I’ve considered myself a writer for quite a while now. I’ve managed a simple blog since probably 2010. For someone in their younger twenties, I’d say that’s a pretty good run. I may not have been the best at continuing to update it weekly, bi-weekly, or even once a month, but when I did post something it was heartfelt and real.

I’ve always been overly open and honest, at least with my blog and with the small audience I had.

And now I should continue with my honesty.

I am going to start writing every day. 500 words per day. It sounds like such a small amount, and it really is. But when writer’s block creeps in, it can be debilitating looking at the blank page and the cursor that just blinks back at me.

My writer’s block is not just unable to think of something to write, it’s the fear of something being horribly written or loving it too much and not having anyone to rejoice with me about whatever adventure I am writing about.

But now I’m moving through that to something more. I’m embracing a challenge. 500 words per day. Even if I write “500 words a day” over and over, or just ramble about my life.

I can do this. It’s small.

A month or so ago, my pastor taught on finding your purpose and passion in life. I only feel fulfilled when I write or after I finish writing. It’s a small consolation to living life sometimes, but it’s always freeing. I feel like this is something I can do to glorify the Lord because I’m doing it because it’s what He made me to do.

Soon I’ll be moving to something other than just Christian focused writing, but I don’t think that means I won’t be glorifying him. Just doing what He wants me to and what He has created me to do.

Sounds great, but also terrifying. My heart clenches just thinking about it.

I have to move past this, though. This fear of not being able to do it. This fear of not being able to commit to something beautiful. I want this to be my year of commitment.

Commitment to writing, passions, purpose.

Isaiah 43 tells me that I should forget the past because God is doing something new in my life. Something that is healthy and will grow. And to cross reference Jeremiah 17, I’m going to plant myself by the River of Life and grow. I am looking forward. And possibly rambling. But I am used to writing just to write.

Well, this is me trying to sign off but also trying to reach the goal of 500 words.

I wish there was a beautiful quote I could end with. The only thing I can really think of is something I’ve been saying since the new year started. It’s not from a book or any famous person, just me and my own musings.

Take tomorrow’s risks today.

--Maggie Mae