What if you could ask every question you always wondered about? What if you had the courage to ask anyone everything you've wanted to...
What if you did ask every question you worried about asking?
What would come from your lips?
For me I would ask if you ever cared. If you love her. If you loved her at the time. Do miss me?
Are you aware that I expect time from you? Do you know that I drop my own plans for you at times and I feel like you don't care about me half as much? Do you know that if you make plans with me I feel like you'll never follow through? Do you know I never confront you about your own feelings because I'm afraid you'll cut me out? Why can't you say I love you? Why do you never believe me? Why when I say yes it's not enough, but when I say no it's catastrophic? If I called you today, this moment, you would come for me? What would happen if I disappeared? Why did you choose me? Do you think it was by chance we met or destiny? What if we didn't meet? Would you care if we never spoke again? Do I mean anything to you now? Do you blame me? Do you know how much you hurt me daily? Do you know the depth of my fear of rejection? Do you care? Could you ever love me? Why her? What separates us?
Will asking any of these questions even change anything? What if I knew the answers? What would that change? Would my life continue on as is or would everything be irrevocably different?
Just some food for thoughts.
